THE DARK SIDE OF POKER
There comes a time in every person´s life when reality hits you in the face and it becomes a life changing experience.
It can come in many ways but for me personally the most common one have been by living a momento, not directly affected but by just being there and watching something.
As a professional poker player this “epiphany” came a few days ago when I was playing my regular 2/5 live cash game session and watched this business man play 100% of hands and virtually winning and losing 10-15 buy ins in the matter of a few hours.
I know as a poker pro I can´t complain since we “want” and/or “need” these type of people in order to profit from the game and the game also needs and wants these type of people because they´re usually the active depositors that allow the game to remain profitable for the rest of us.
But was in the moment that I felt an emptiness I never felt in a very long time and it was due to the fact that as a professional you want to be in a profession that makes a difference not just by bringing in the “big bucks” and support your family but to also make a difference in your community and the world.
Forgot when I started to play this game it was going to merely be a tool or a means to achieve something more meaningful in life, to accomplish something tangible and worthwhile something my kids would be proud of.
The game was never intended to be my end game in life, remember having a lot of goals and dreams and they all gradually started to fade away when you are so into the lifestyle and the possibility to hit that big score.
It is easy to lost sight of what is truly important in life when you´re making a decent amount of money but thankfully life comes full circle eventually and it handles you reminders sometimes not easy to take but they have a reason and it is to never lose focus of what is truly important in your life.
Not saying that I will quit playing just saying that now I have a much better understanding of what poker really means to me and the place it has on my life and the role it will play in the near future.
It´s funny how at the end one of the most important concepts I learned from the game it helped me realize one of the most crucial aspects of life and that is to be balanced¡!.
From now on I will live my life in a more balanced way and will work towards building the foundations for my life after poker cause you never now for how long I can keep playing this game at the level I need in order to generate enough money for me and my family nor what will happened with poker legislation in the future, too many factors that has an enormous impact on my work and I’m not comfortable with that neither.